Everything else is just a temporary mental trip.
Give me your worries, doubts and fears if you dare…I welcome them into my body temple where they can be met with forgiveness.
I don’t pray for worldly things or special circumstances. To me that’s just plain vanity.
I’m no longer under the impression that I know what in the world is necessary or right for me. So instead of praying for anything in particular, the prayer I offer is reverent attention to whatever arises through the particulars of life.
For instance, when I perceive illness in my body I don’t pray for better health. Instead, I use the power of reverent attention to fully experience physical dis-ease and whatever else is coming up in the moment.
I experience illness only until I can imagine (image-in) vibrant health, then vibrant health becomes my experience…even before this body shows evidence of healing.
Likewise, when I perceive conflict in a relatio
nship between myself and another person, I don’t pray for them or me to be different. I reverently experience this form of dis-ease until I can imagine loving connection between us.
Praying in this way has become natural for me because my mind is aware that recognizing ignorance as such is what’s needed to give up mental images that deny vibrant health and healthy relationships….not praying for a different experience.
Yes, I have felt anxiety about needing things to be different so that I could get back to work, chores, or just being happy again. But I have discovered that there is nothing more productive than praying in this way.
Indeed, praying in the true way has made me so sensitive to the habitual mental tendency to regard ignorance as truth that I cannot participate in the insanity anymore.
No matter what happens, my point of view remains within awareness of truth, and so through the life I live, the mind is being restored to its original state of vibrance, innocence and peace.
As some of you may know, I am hosting a week-long retreat in October here in Hawaii. I was guided to do so after being shown that my perspective can inspire, uplift and help people give up limiting beliefs…And after receiving a vision of a retreat center where people come to renew, rejuvenate and awaken to the life that’s meant to be lived through them.
Because I have nothing to offer in the form of any service, technique or modality, I’ve found it quite challenging to market myself. To do so, I would need to get the word out about how people can benefit just from being in my presence, which has been a form of self promotion that feels icky to me.
Several months ago, my 22 year old daughter seemed like she was coming to my rescue in this regard…she seemed excited about people coming to retreat with me, and she started calling herself my manager, so I excused myself from self promotion…whew!!
What I experienced though was a lot more of me asking what’s happening with the promotion than any promotion going on. The reflection that I received back from my daughter was that I seemed to lack creativity for the retreat and so there’s nothing to promote, plus I seemed stressed out whenever I mentioned it.
On top of that, for the past few years, my husband has been reflecting that I have nothing but love to offer, and I don’t need a retreat for that. He also reflects the idea that I should be more of a mother, wife and business woman instead of trying to achieve some sort of fame or notoriety on my own.
Needless to say, I don’t sense a lot of support for this retreat coming from the people I live with. Plus, so far, there are exactly 0 signups, and only a few people have expressed an interest in actually paying for the retreat, so I don’t sense a lot of support for the retreat coming from the people who read from me either.
Thankfully, I recognize that the perceived lack of support has nothing to do with me, nor does it have to do with the people who reflect that to me. The lack of support that I perceive is the result of the belief that a better version of myself is necessary BEFORE I am worthy of taking action as I am guided to do so.
In this way, I found myself innocently looking for my husband’s approval and other people’s support as confirmation that it is OK to put myself out there like this.
Of course the idea that there is a self here who can be worthy or unworthy of the visions and guidance that have been placed within her is just absurd to me…But the illusions that I have made through innocently believing in this absurdity for many years still presented itself as painful reality for me.
What I noticed many times during this unfolding was the mind’s valiant attempts to keep me safe from the pain that was being experienced…like the desire to deny the life that moves in me, and opt for the “simple” life instead. “Look!” The mind says…”you have all that you need. A great husband, family and lifestyle…just rest.”
But experience has taught me that I have no choice in the matter. The passion that drives me to share is not something that I can control of myself, so all I can do is offer up the ideas, concepts and judgments that make myself up….And thereby experience rest within whatever movement happens to be happening through me.
Beneath every set of seemingly upsetting circumstances, there is so much appreciation that I get to be the one who has nothing but a healing perspective to offer, and who is willing to follow guidance and visions as they appear to her without fear of losing anything.
Gladly, I went through a lot of anger and sadness about the illusions I permitted the mind to make for myself, and they have been reconciled….Such that I can perceive fun new ideas for getting the word out about how awesome it is to be in my presence…even if the people closest to me seem to have a problem with that.
What I see is that old paradigm ways of thinking aren’t going out without a fight. Outmoded thought patterns seem to be searching desperately for something/someone to measure and find fault with.
What to do? Watch these things pass and enjoy the blessings that come out of knowing what’s really true.
One of the forces that’s set up in the mind to keep people in denial of God’s love and disconnected from one another is the perceived need to dismantle the powers and systems that seem to be running the world.
Thankfully, I’m aware that it’s not my business to dismantle anything unless I happen to be dismantling something at the time, and so this delusional force can have no power over my consciousness.
Thoughts about how systems will be dismantled, when it will happen, who will do it, and what will be the fallout is just more dancing with delusion from my perspective. I have observed that these ways of thinking are distractions….if I permit these kinds of thoughts to become relevant for me, I cannot also see the bigger picture as it relates to what’s happening in me and through me right now.
I’ve heard all the mental arguments about how frivolous it is to focus on right now when all these horrible things are happening in the world, but it’s been made abundantly clear to my mind that it’s the other way around…Frivolity is focusing on ignorance and thinking that ignorance can be dismantled through more ignorance.
In this way, I am not concerned with, nor do I have any opinion or idea about other people who seem set in their ways and unwilling to transcend that which holds them to the perception of lack and the need to blame. These people are not my job, but my reflection.
What do I do with all reflections of mine that appear to lack love? I observe what my mind is holding against them, and let it be.
In this way, my mind is free to creatively imagine and my body is free to express whatever brings joy to my heart…instead of being bound by perception of lack.
It’s so simple, it seems difficult, and that’s why the mind that worships its own intellectual prowess cannot fathom what’s really true.
When Unity was only a concept for me, it appeared that I needed to get other people on board with that concept.
But now that Unity has permeated my mind, it’s clear that nothing else is needed.
Many of our prisons are now owned by businesses that are expecting to profit on the shame, guilt, fault and the need to punish which the majority of people on the planet are presently taking as reality.
Who will be next to express society’s belief in false things? Who will pay the price for keeping these illusions alive?
In the name of freedom for all, and knowing what I know to be true, it’s impossible for me to buy ideas that deny innocence to anyone for any reason.
Sure there is ignorance of the truth, but there is no fault in that. Instead of meeting ignorance with more ignorance in the form of guilt, shame or punishment – I allow the clarity of God’s love to dissolve all matters of ignorance as they arise in my perception.
I’ve discovered that the only true healing is God’s love. It will inevitably eliminate the need for prisons altogether. It’s only a matter of time…
I have no typical response to feeling blamed. I only allow myself to experience the feeling, and bear witness to whatever response arises through myself and through the others in my field of perception.
Through faith in miracles of healing and grace that I had yet to see for myself, I practiced like this with minimal returns at first. But over time, I have experienced countless instances of love being instantly restored between myself and others.
For me, the feeling of being blamed doesn’t have the same quality that it use to because I’m aware right away that the blame I feel has nothing to do with me….And immediately my mind becomes curious as to how it can witness whatever false illusions are making blame feel like reality right now.
Recently, I had an encounter with this very thing. I told the person that it seemed like they were trying to make me wrong, and that person admitted that they felt wrong in response to a question I had asked.
I assured them that the question was only a request, and not intended to make anyone seem wrong. We both witnessed what was making blame seem like reality, the feeling of blame was resolved in favor of love…and of course connection between people was restored.
Wanna know if your view of the world is bringing more peace and harmony to the world? It’s simple. Just look at your relationships.
I cannot bring myself to make fault for anyone who lacks accountability in my perception. Indeed, that would make myself a servant to illusions of fault and thereby unaccountable to the state of innocence that I know to be true.