Self Importance

I don’t see myself as important in any relationship. This is because I’m aware that myself is nothing more than a temporary thought structure designed for the purpose of bringing forth the love that I am.

In this awareness, I fully surrender myself to the fact that I am adored for the all encompassing love and joy that sustains my being…not for anything I say or do.

This means that I don’t have to get anything done, influence anyone (including my kids), or manipulate myself or anyone else to meet expectations.

My only purpose is to feel the sensation of whatever is presently being received and offered through myself…the rest has never been my choice.

May everyone discover how to relate with the whole world in peace and harmony. Aloha!

Christ Consciousness

Christ consciousness is available to everyone now. It’s being offered effortlessly through every pore in my body.

If you are open to receiving this blessing of ecstasy beyond words, just be willing to give up your self made world and allow the love in your heart to keep expanding until it encompasses all of creation.

With much Aloha!

Abundance of the Heart

“Out of the abundance 10689963_10201738441781710_2764218589714651217_nof the heart, the mouth speaks” Jesus the Christ

This is plainly obvious for me, and that’s why I can’t hold anything against those who speak words of harm, punishment and destruction toward myself and other people. 

I’m aware that in every single instance, such language is the cry of an innocent child who has lost their way in the mind, and who’s heart has become guarded by fear.

I notice that the immediate reaction within the mind is to defend against such speech, and also launch a counter attack that seeks to judge, punish and/or destroy the offender.

But I have seen that defense and retaliation can only lead already wayward children to build upon the fear that guards their heart against love…while making structures of fear within my own heart as well.

Plus, when I permit myself to be hypnotized by fear like that, I cannot sense God’s love coursing through my body…..And I’m aware that the one launching attacks cannot presently feel the consequences of what they do because their heart is so hardened by fearful beliefs.

So, I approach verbal attacks by staying focused on the pure sensation of God’s love while also welcoming the feeling sensation of fearful thoughts being launched toward myself and/or other people.

In this way, the capacity has been developed in my heart to take in malevolent energies and reconcile them with God’s judgment…which is love, compassion and peace that passes all understanding.

Are you ready to put away old strategies that darken your heart and cause you to relate with the world through fear?

Come spend a week with me…laugh, play and discover how to live in ecstasy as an extension of the love that sustains and adores yourself and all of creation.

October 2-9, here on Big Island. For details go to www.awakening-retreat.com

Religious Fanaticism vs Aversion

Religious fanaticism and religious aversion are two sides of the same thread of conflict. I’m aware of this because I have experience in playing both sides in this lifetime.

But I have found there is no trace of conflict in the silent space that exists before the mind moves to imagine who God is, and what God wants.

And…I’m positive that this place of eternal peace is available to anyone who is willing to surrender thinking about God to feeling the I Am presence that moves and breathes the physical body.

Feeling is what’s really true…the rest is only a dream. This is ultimate ecstasy. You’re welcome to join me if you like.

In Joy!

Affirmations

Affirmations are not meaningful to me. Saying to myself that I am anything at all is to tell a lie…

I am that I am, and I have no desire to add illusions to the false self or to the dream reality.

Not only that, but to claim that I am one thing is to also activate it’s opposite in the dream. For instance if I were too affirm that “I am safe”, automatically the opposite of safety is also being made part of the mind made reality.

Speaking of safety, how could I ever be unsafe? Who am I that I could lack safety? In fact I am not a body or anything that could ever need to be kept safe.

I accept responsibility for taking care of this body, but only as an instrument for receiving and offering God’s love… I have no special interest in avoiding whatever is meant to become of it.

This body may manifest illnesses, injuries, beatings, deformities or dismemberment…I don’t mind. If these things are necessary to awaken God’s children out of their self created dream of suffering, I welcome them too.

Nothing is rejected in me because I’m aware that all things are equal.

Abundant blessings!

Afraid of Fear

I’m not afraid of fear. To me, fear is just a message that my mind is presently hypnotized by worldly knowledge that says I’m separate from God.

Through my willingness to feel the depths of fear, I have discovered that there is no separation, and that all forms fear are only mind-made illusions. As such, when the feeling of fear arises in me, I don’t try to get rid of it…I feel through it…with awareness that God’s love is the only reality.

In fearful situations, instead of entering hypnosis and reacting unconsciously, I can remain presently aware and be the fulfillment of God’s plan in that holy instant. Wisdom is the ability to experience fear without being impressed by it.

May every heart share in this Peace….Aloha!

Pain is no Problem

Physical discomfort, pain and tension are not problems for me because I’m aware that they are meant to be experienced from a deeper sense of comfort, joy and appreciation for all biological processes…

It’s only when I try to attain or maintain an ideal picture of physical vitality that I can be impressed by fear, and thereby suffer over temporary physical sensations.

Hypochondriac

I used to be somewhat of a hypochondriac…suffering over the physical pain, discomfort and bodily illnesses that I experienced.

I always found something in the physical world to blame for my perceived lack of health…whether that was imperfect food, air pollution or noise that would prevent me from getting restful sleep.

But since I gave up blame, I and my family have been experiencing more vibrant health, wellness and comfort in our bodies than ever before…despite the fact that we are direct neighbors to a power plant that seems to be the cause of health issues for many members of our community, and we frequently swim in ocean water that’s been reportedly tainted with radiation for years.

To me, this is a testament to the fact that when fear and worry associated with blame are released, the physical body becomes more receptive to the vital Life Force Energy that constantly creates and sustains all living organisms.

Blessed be!

Getting Kids to Behave

I stopped wanting love and respect from my children, because I recognized that what I really want is to experience my children exactly as they are.

Once I was willing and eager to purposefully go through every suffering that arose from my experience of raising children, it was also obvious that trying to change how they showed up in my perception would defeat that purpose.

At this point, I’ve been playing the role of parent for over 22 years, and like the common parent, I used to think that it was of utmost importance that my children show love and respect for myself, other significant people and each other.

But starting about four years ago, I began to intuitively recognize that wanting something other than authentic expression from my children caused me to react in a way that attempted to make them into slaves to my personal desires….so that I could avoid going through the sufferings that reflected my own ideas of self importance.

When I first intuited what was really going on, it was very painful for me. Every time that feeling of wanting my children to behave differently came up, a lot of pain and suffering arose with it, and I wasn’t quite sure what to do with all of the intensity that I was experiencing.

To start out, I tried ignoring my kids whenever I suffered over them. Instead of giving them attention, I attended to my own breathing…I would control my breath, making the inhale and exhale long and deep as best I could.

On many occasions, this substitute form of control worked out and I would recover without an angry outburst or fit of victimization. But ultimately, I noticed more of a disconnect between myself and my children…and I knew that to truly go though the intense suffering that arose in connection with these sacred relationships required another approach, although I had no idea what it was.

I looked to the masters for any counsel in this regard, but what I found was that the masters didn’t even bother with raising kids. In fact, the Buddha left his wife and son to seek enlightenment.

As the desire for enlightenment was very powerful in me, for awhile I had the notion of also leaving my own family so that I could work out my salvation without being disturbed by them, but thankfully, I also knew that my path was different…

In my case, I have been gifted with this amazing husband who was willing to take on the role of single parent whenever I felt the need to take space from my family life. I kept retreating from my role as mother and returning again, ultimately realizing that my children were an important key to my total liberation and freedom from suffering.

At that point, which was little more than 1.5 years ago, I made a commitment to stop entertaining thoughts about leaving my family, and to spend more time with them. Instead of trying to control anything, even my own breathing, whenever sufferings arose I would retreat to a private space in my home to experience the energies that had me under their spell.

At the time, I had a selenite crystal wand which was long enough to cover my entire torso. I would hold tight to that wand while experiencing tears, a lot of internal heat, and both mental and physical pain and suffering. For many months I cried loudly, as the pain was so intense that it made me scream.

Eventually, I surrendered to my sufferings without making loud sounds, and just let the burning sensation happen in my body and mind…until nothing was left of this idea that I needed my children to be different. About three months ago, I realized that I no longer required the selenite crystal for this purpose, and when I met another woman who admired it…I gave it to her gladly.

More recently, only a few days after completing a 10 day silent Vipassana retreat, a very painful sensation around my kids came up again, and for about 30 minutes I entertained the idea of getting away from them…I cried over it a bit as my mind projected a need for change…and then there was a sudden sense of embodiment like I had never known before, and I was immediately relieved of all pain and suffering.

At this point, any form of suffering comes up and I smile, allowing the sensation to burn through my body…just noticing thoughts and experiencing feelings as the defilements held for me in the mind very quickly burn themselves out.

Now when my children express suffering, there is no reaction in me. I don’t avoid or ignore them either. I willingly and gladly feel the pain of the perception they are taking as true, but I do not join in their suffering.

As for choosing my response…I don’t choose. I allow the response that most resonates with the peace that has come over me to come spontaneously through me…even if that means no response at all.

Through this process, I have come to recognize that everyone who suffers is like a little child…and that I have come to nurture them with this peace that passes all understanding.

In gratitude!