You don't have anything. Even desires, opinions, tendencies and preferences are appearing in front of you.
They aren't personal because there is no person. There's just a collection of thoughts about a personal self that does not exist beyond such thoughts.
It's your obedience to thoughts like 'I have this preference' or 'I don't have that tendency' that keeps you identified as a personality that can suffer while the totality that you are remains unrealized.
Give it all up, and the apparent power of this world can have no sway over you.
Learning to love the self is a journey for the ego. All time-based selves are illusory mental constructs - only capable of giving and receiving a mental version of love - which always contains its opposite.
But when the whole expression is recognized as One, true Love is automatically shared with the Self that abides within all people, places and things.
To so recognize, simply watch the individual self as it tries to love. You are before that.
The only true Choice is whether to let awareness get swept away on the winds of thought, or to abide in the infinite and unchanging Truth right now.
Worldly choices are being made automatically through mental conditioning. Just let those choices be what they are, so that you are not distracted from the opportunity at hand.
What is Satsang?
Satsanga, Satsangam, Satsang (Sanskrit सत्सङ्ग sat = true, sanga = company) in Indian philosophy means (1) the company of the "highest truth," (2) the company of a guru, or (3) company with an assembly of persons who listen to, talk about, and assimilate the truth. This typically involves listening to or reading scriptures, reflecting on, discussing and assimilating their meaning, meditating on the source of these words, and bringing their meaning into one’s daily life. Contemporary spiritual teachers in the West frequently come from the East but can come from any part of the world.
From Hope's Perspective
Satsang, is the joining of minds with the intent to discover what beliefs are keeping the self limited to conditioned reality. Once those limitations are exposed, they are no longer limitations and the self can expand beyond what was previously thought possible.
Forgiveness is something you can allow within your awareness. It has nothing to do with other people, their behavior or whether they seek your forgiveness.
Simply be Willing to let your ideas about the person, people and/or situation arise and subside without adding energy to them. Forgiveness happens automatically, as people and situations arrange themselves to reflect the same.
Limitless creativity and abundance are inherent aspects of the Love that you are.
However, you place limits on these aspects while you seek to get something out of sharing this Love, and through your seeking to parlay your sharing into something greater for your self.
Shared Love is its own reward. Seek not for worldly reward, and you will discover that there is nothing which you do not already possess.