Punishment from God

It’s a grave error to think that any happening of this world is punishment from God. God’s punishment is experienced as present moment suffering… And even this is not really punishment at all.

Suffering is God’s message that the mind is focused on fearful things, and is being invited to repent or return to fearless appreciation for what is, what was and what is coming. To fear things of this world is to bring the wrath of suffering upon one self, but to surrender fear in the face of fearful things is to allow layers of pain and suffering to be washed away…and the original state of peace and harmony to be revealed.

So I beckon you in the words of Jesus the Christ to “Repent, the Kingdom of Heaven is at Hand”. To repent is simply to stop chasing the mind’s intrigues and pay attention to what you feel.

Abundant blessings!

Self Importance

I don’t see myself as important in any relationship. This is because I’m aware that myself is nothing more than a temporary thought structure designed for the purpose of bringing forth the love that I am.

In this awareness, I fully surrender myself to the fact that I am adored for the all encompassing love and joy that sustains my being…not for anything I say or do.

This means that I don’t have to get anything done, influence anyone (including my kids), or manipulate myself or anyone else to meet expectations.

My only purpose is to feel the sensation of whatever is presently being received and offered through myself…the rest has never been my choice.

May everyone discover how to relate with the whole world in peace and harmony. Aloha!

Religious Fanaticism vs Aversion

Religious fanaticism and religious aversion are two sides of the same thread of conflict. I’m aware of this because I have experience in playing both sides in this lifetime.

But I have found there is no trace of conflict in the silent space that exists before the mind moves to imagine who God is, and what God wants.

And…I’m positive that this place of eternal peace is available to anyone who is willing to surrender thinking about God to feeling the I Am presence that moves and breathes the physical body.

Feeling is what’s really true…the rest is only a dream. This is ultimate ecstasy. You’re welcome to join me if you like.

In Joy!

Getting Kids to Behave

I stopped wanting love and respect from my children, because I recognized that what I really want is to experience my children exactly as they are.

Once I was willing and eager to purposefully go through every suffering that arose from my experience of raising children, it was also obvious that trying to change how they showed up in my perception would defeat that purpose.

At this point, I’ve been playing the role of parent for over 22 years, and like the common parent, I used to think that it was of utmost importance that my children show love and respect for myself, other significant people and each other.

But starting about four years ago, I began to intuitively recognize that wanting something other than authentic expression from my children caused me to react in a way that attempted to make them into slaves to my personal desires….so that I could avoid going through the sufferings that reflected my own ideas of self importance.

When I first intuited what was really going on, it was very painful for me. Every time that feeling of wanting my children to behave differently came up, a lot of pain and suffering arose with it, and I wasn’t quite sure what to do with all of the intensity that I was experiencing.

To start out, I tried ignoring my kids whenever I suffered over them. Instead of giving them attention, I attended to my own breathing…I would control my breath, making the inhale and exhale long and deep as best I could.

On many occasions, this substitute form of control worked out and I would recover without an angry outburst or fit of victimization. But ultimately, I noticed more of a disconnect between myself and my children…and I knew that to truly go though the intense suffering that arose in connection with these sacred relationships required another approach, although I had no idea what it was.

I looked to the masters for any counsel in this regard, but what I found was that the masters didn’t even bother with raising kids. In fact, the Buddha left his wife and son to seek enlightenment.

As the desire for enlightenment was very powerful in me, for awhile I had the notion of also leaving my own family so that I could work out my salvation without being disturbed by them, but thankfully, I also knew that my path was different…

In my case, I have been gifted with this amazing husband who was willing to take on the role of single parent whenever I felt the need to take space from my family life. I kept retreating from my role as mother and returning again, ultimately realizing that my children were an important key to my total liberation and freedom from suffering.

At that point, which was little more than 1.5 years ago, I made a commitment to stop entertaining thoughts about leaving my family, and to spend more time with them. Instead of trying to control anything, even my own breathing, whenever sufferings arose I would retreat to a private space in my home to experience the energies that had me under their spell.

At the time, I had a selenite crystal wand which was long enough to cover my entire torso. I would hold tight to that wand while experiencing tears, a lot of internal heat, and both mental and physical pain and suffering. For many months I cried loudly, as the pain was so intense that it made me scream.

Eventually, I surrendered to my sufferings without making loud sounds, and just let the burning sensation happen in my body and mind…until nothing was left of this idea that I needed my children to be different. About three months ago, I realized that I no longer required the selenite crystal for this purpose, and when I met another woman who admired it…I gave it to her gladly.

More recently, only a few days after completing a 10 day silent Vipassana retreat, a very painful sensation around my kids came up again, and for about 30 minutes I entertained the idea of getting away from them…I cried over it a bit as my mind projected a need for change…and then there was a sudden sense of embodiment like I had never known before, and I was immediately relieved of all pain and suffering.

At this point, any form of suffering comes up and I smile, allowing the sensation to burn through my body…just noticing thoughts and experiencing feelings as the defilements held for me in the mind very quickly burn themselves out.

Now when my children express suffering, there is no reaction in me. I don’t avoid or ignore them either. I willingly and gladly feel the pain of the perception they are taking as true, but I do not join in their suffering.

As for choosing my response…I don’t choose. I allow the response that most resonates with the peace that has come over me to come spontaneously through me…even if that means no response at all.

Through this process, I have come to recognize that everyone who suffers is like a little child…and that I have come to nurture them with this peace that passes all understanding.

In gratitude!

Self as God

Imagining the individual self to be a god is what happens in the moment the child mind is impressed by fearful circumstances and thereby mistakenly perceives itself to have been abandoned by God.

Due to such misperception, the child in turn abandons God by thinking itself to be a god of sorts amongst many other individual gods with conflicting points if view.

It has been revealed to me that every child has been corrupted by the same misperception, and thus has developed mental strategies designed to get love and avoid punishment…and that such strategies are the sole cause of all the misery the world has ever known.

Because of this revelation, I cannot help but surrender all of my self concepts and strategies to the living God.

Through said surrender, my mind’s innocence has been restored, and I have come to know Peace that is not dependent on any circumstance.

This has not been an accomplishment of myself. It is a gift that’s available to everyone who is willing to surrender their self concepts to the one true God – the unfathomable wisdom that moves and breathes both mind and body.

Is anyone else called to accept the gift I’m speaking about? If so, listen to my words with your whole body, and the wisdom that resonates from within will burn away everything that keeps distance between yourself and this Paradise that been created just for you.

In love!

Give up Worrry

DCIM103GOPROI can no longer buy into ignorance. It’s been revealed to my mind that life is easy and harmonious.

Everything else is just a temporary mental trip.

Give me your worries, doubts and fears if you dare…I welcome them into my body temple where they can be met with forgiveness.