Vengeful thoughts are born out of the core belief that Love is something that must be earned. Such thoughts arise on fearful emotional patterns that began in infancy – when we first took this false idea as truth.
The idea that we are not unconditionally loved made us feel afraid that we may not be found good or worthy enough to deserve love. To avoid that fearful feeling we innocently escaped into the corridors of mind to help us to become loveable.
When we were rewarded for our efforts, we felt worthy of the love that we craved; and when we were punished, we felt unworthy and thus vengeful. Vengeful thoughts are the way the mind protects us from feeling unworthy, by making others out to be more deserving of punishment than we are.
These thoughts powerfully command our attention, and make us numb to the underlying feeling sensation, which attracts them. NoBody is immune from vengeful thoughts – which are the building blocks for the myriad ways in which we have been harming ourselves and others over thousands of years.
We are all complicit and innocent simultaneously – we are only doing the best we can based on what we believe to be true. Before we were given physical bodies, we all knew the truth, but in our innocence we took on the world’s lack of love as absolute truth, and from that core belief we have added more beliefs, which serve to further deny the Love that we are.
As adults, the idea that love must be earned continues to run our lives and the collective world, but only until we experientially remember the truth.
How do we experience what’s true? When we observe thoughts that seek to punish anyone, we direct our mental attention toward quietly experiencing whatever feelings are arising.
We intend to observe what’s being felt instead of indulging in thought streams that ask ‘why me’, make anyone out to be wrong, fantasize about harm coming to people, or try to figure out how to change anyone.
We remember our intent to quietly observe the vibrational resonance in our bodies as we keep re-directing our attention on the felt sensation – even when presented with thoughts about how our feelings or thoughts need to be changed, healed, transformed, etc.
We also recognize that the most intensely uncomfortable emotions present thoughts that seem very important in the moment, and we keep breathing and redirecting our attention as we do our best to feel beneath those thoughts.
Vengeful thoughts are not our fault, but they have become our responsibility. For we are the living heirs of these thoughts, and the violence in our world is a reflection of them.
Keep breathing consciously and do your best. Through your presence, you have the power to command miracles of grace in your life and for your world.